Saturday, 10 October 2015

I was once a child....

Lost in driving the car.....

I was once upon a child who smiled and played around with great innocence. My happiness was limited to an ice cream or a ride of peacock train in my favorite park or eating bhelpuri from a footpath stall. For me then spending 10 rupees was a great task. Those days I would become very happy  when I would get a rupee to buy toffee as my commission for going to the shop for my mother.

Today I have lost that child in me who thought everything is possible. That child even thought to have 300 rupees in his piggy bank was a great sum of money. That child felt proud owning a hero cycle. For him, the world was limited to his home and school. The only people about whom he was worried was his friends and parents.  What would the rest of the world think about him never worried him? His fight with his friends lasted only till he gets  a chance to bat. His anger on parents use to end on an ice cream. For him, ego was just a word in the dictionary. He uses to ask questions about things around him without any hesitation.

I was once a child who loved watching Tom and Jerry than watching "Avengers". For me then being an astronaut was just a possible thing.

Everything was going very smoothly till the system or a trend or a thought of so-called "BEING MATURE" came.

That thought did change my life. It changed me to a different human being. This person never found the happiness of a peacock train ride or having an ice cream. He always wanted more and more from life. He was never satisfied. He always  thought about what would world think if he did something. How would people judge him.? All these thoughts made the things become impossible, which for him were once easy. He forgot to laugh and smile with innocence.

He was busier in setting up a career than being happy and doing what he liked the most.Being practical and matured has taken away the child inside me. That child liked colors and was more adventurous and creative.

I do not know when I would be meeting that child again, but for sure I will find him out. I miss my "CHILDISHNESS"...

Wednesday, 7 October 2015

Illusion of light

'Truth' is a word which describes reality. It describes a situation or a thing which actually exists in present or use to exist.

Until now all philosophers, all scientists  and the educated men told or made us believe that 'light' is the symbol of "truth". They thought light is the thing which shows us the truth or rather leads us towards the truth.

I was bit confused so decided to give it a thought. I found some problem agreeing with the theory they gave. I was not able to convince myself with what the people believed and followed. Because of all this I started thinking about the ability of light and the truth shown by it.

During this process of thinking, I came across darkness and realized that light is always less educated than Darkness.

Darkness, we all thought that its just a black space where we cannot see or realize the things around us. We thought darkness is a symbol or an alternative for "lie". We thought darkness is equal to lie because we are not able to see or visualize things which existed in the real world in the darkness.

In my thought process I found something really weird and contradicting the theory which was being followed blindly.

I found that light actually represents a lie or a world which lie wants to represent. Light does not include all things which exist in this universe. Light creates an illusion, which makes us see what light wants us to see. It tries to hide things from our vision or from our knowledge.

But on the other hand darkness includes everything in itself. It doesn't hide things; but we are less educated or do not have the ability to see in the darkness. Sometime darkness gives the answer to the questions which light failed to answer. Darkness shows us everything, but being believing that light is the ultimate truth, we are unable to see in darkness or never tried to search things.

An example for the illusion created by light is the sky itself. During day time, we see that there is only one star called "SUN" in the sky. But is that the "TRUTH"? Along with the sun other stars also existed. Due to the light from the sun we are unable to see the stars in the sky during the day time. So this is a kind of illusion or lie that light creates. Then comes the night  which is dark. During the night, we are able to see stars twinkling.

These thoughts gave me a rough idea of what darkness is and how light is an illusion or a false face. Now I am more curious and want to explore darkness. My mind has become inquisitive thinking what this darkness is all about. I eagerly want to know the "DARKNESS" and its ways of revealing the truth in a different perspective.     

Logh kya kahenghe

The feeling of "log kya kahenge" is the biggest barrier that a common man in India has to face before doing anything. Great ideas to start a good enterprise or to do something better for the society is always stopped by this feeling.
Many talents in India die only because of these three words. To break this barrier is the toughest task. Even if the person sets out without bothering about this, then his parents and relatives will come along telling the same sutra.
When a middle-class guy decides to take up dancing or photography as a  profession then the parents come in the picture saying " log kya bolenge, dekho Sharmaji ka beta science lekar abroad mein padh  raha hai, usse kuch sikho."
There dies a talents...
His parents does not let him  explore the world and find what he really is or what he could be.
" Agar padhoge nahi tho engineer kaise banoge, TCS ya Infosys mein job kaise milegi, kon ladakhi dega tumhe..."
This is a common Indian middle class parent's dialect.
If your parents let you do what you really want to do, there comes a great army of relatives.
This goes on....and talents are murdered everyday.
Our parents let be Steve Jobs or Bill Gates.....but can they be like their parents who let them do what they really wanted to do.
During class X they told us, " Study hard now, you will get science in Class XI and XII"
During Class XI " Study hard now you will get an engineering seat and life will be settled."
And now they repeat the same stuff.
So I have finally come to the conclusion, let me not hear them anymore and set out to do what I feel is right.
As Varun Agarwal said " Don't think....."
Thinking always made me fail and feel sad because I never loved what I did.
On a small note from a speech of Steve Jobs ending my words

"To do great work, love what you do. And if you have not found what you love keep looking...."